The Big Machine: Way Too Fast
For those of you who are familiar with Big Machine, a song by Goo Goo Dolls, you’ll most probably have a vague idea of what I’m about to write. As parts of the the song go: "Now your world is way too fast, nothing’s real and nothing lasts, and I’m aware, I’m love but you don’t care…I’m torn in pieces…" I think these lines most aptly describe my state right now.
Now your world is way too fast.
Last Monday, November 6, I got my grades. And whew! I’m graduating on time! The fear of not graduating this coming March was life changing. I mean, it’s not bad per se it’s just that a lot of people especially my parents have this fixed set of expectations. It’s hard when you let them down. A great sigh of relief. The happenings from Monday until now, it’s all a blur. This week was sooo fast and busy. And it’s in a good way, actually.
Sometimes, you just want to world to spin spin spin. Wanting it to move at the speed of light because of the anticipation of what you’ll discover when it suddenly stops. We all want to know what’ll happen later, tomorrow, years from now. We’re always rushing things because maybe we’re in a hurry to get somewhere but when we get there, we realize it isn’t as great as we thought, after all. And maybe we regret or wish at that point that we should’ve taken things a step a time. We should’ve appreciated getting there, instead. In that in between, from point A to point Z, we miss out on a lot of things and those seemingly insignificant instances would’ve probably been more meaningful if we looked closer or slowed down. The stuff regrets are made of.
Way too fast isn’t bad. It’s good when you’re all caught up in the moment. But when it stops spinning, you tend to get dizzy. Like this week. It was fast. But it was fun because I was able to do a lot things. As in busy. But come Friday, bam! I found myself with nothing to do and as a result, I’m here thinking too much. Thinking of how I should start making decisions and sticking to them. Dizzying.
And maybe, what I’m trying to say is that life is fun when it’s fast-paced but there are serious setbacks too. We overlook and forget. Great moments do pass us by and at a blink of an eye everything can change.
