“To the delirious eye, more lovely things of Paradise and Love-and all our own. Than young Hope in his sunniest hour hath known”-Edgar Allan Poe
October 12, 2007 at 8:07 am
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I miss how things were.
There are mornings wake up and yearn for change.
I try to make it a point to do something different each day. That doing-something-new-each-day includes waking up way too early to join a Monday pilates session in the office! No matter how out of shape I am since my varsity days, I still manage to squeeze in a bit of exercise. And that’s good right? And that doing-something-different also means giving arnis a try! Yep, now it’s Filipino martial arts. What next? I actually find it quite amusing trying the things I never thought I’d try. Arnis was such a struggle for me years back in high school PE. My obvious lack of coordination (and maybe grace) made me swear off arnis from my future endeavors list. But hey, big surprise, I’m finding it pretty enjoyable right now.
More ‘attempts’ include artsifying my life. I miss the trying-hard artist in me which my very supportive friends, erm, support (read: mock! hehe). But I still very much insist that I’m an artists at heart haha…
But all those aside, I’m still bored. Not the bored with nothing to do bored but the kind of bored which is characterized by predictability and routine. Hell, I’m up to my neck with deadlines and commitments, one would question how i could possibly be bored. I dunno, I guess I just feel that I’m missing out on a lot. We have so much time, I mean we ARE temporal beings. Yet it’s so ironic that we have so little of it. We have so little at our disposal.
Perhaps we’re all so caught up with making a living that we forget we have a life. That we forget that the four corners of an office (or classroom) isn’t everything.
My friend asked me what success was. I don’t know what it is anymore. Maybe it means making everyday count? Or amassing huge sums of moolah. I don’t know. Maybe it’s what Dumbledore of Rowling’s Harry Potter said, that the happiest man in the world would look into the Mirror of Erised see only himself since it " shows us nothing more or less than the deepest, most desperate desire of our hearts".
And maybe when I figure out what success is to me, what I really want in life, how live it and get out of this rut, then maybe then I’d find that I don’t have to constantly distract myself from reality because reality then would be more than bearable.
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aviva wrote @ October 12th, 2007 at 8:40 am
yah. dat seems to be my prob too. i hav so many thngs to do yet so little time. i want to do so many things and yet i dnt hv either d energy or d opportunity. i just have that tiny hope inside me that someday things will improve (a.k.a i will have the time to pursue the things that really matter to me)
perfect
Ezekiel wrote @ October 13th, 2007 at 7:23 am
your blog-writing-skills are back. good.
let me share you something.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
~ Pareng Mark Twain
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.” (2 Corinthians 4:7-10 NIV)
Although I don’t recall anyone ever specifically teaching me this, somewhere along the way I embraced the idea that “You have to play hurt.” It’s the philosophy in sports that your commitment in competition is such that you don’t let the pain from injuries – even some of the major ones – keep you from playing, and playing to win.
Brett Favre, the long-standing quarterback for the Green Bay Packers, who we discussed yesterday, is an extraordinary model of this “play hurt” mentality. Often called an iron man, Favre has played through broken bones, sprains, concussions, and a myriad of other injuries – major and minor – making him one of only two NFL players to start every game his team has played over the last 15 years (and the other guy is a punter, not the heart-and-soul quarterback of a team who plays on every offensive down). And Favre is still at it even though he just turned 38, which in the dog-years of 9-to-5 work is like 68.
He certainly doesn’t stay at it for the money because he’s made plenty of it, and he doesn’t do it for the records because he’s already broken most of them. You get the sense from Favre that he’s chasing one more championship, but that he also stays in it for love of the game.
In a similar way, Coach Paul (of Tarsus) teaches us to push past the pain of becoming like Christ. For now, we carry this eternal treasure in fragile in jars of clay as we learn to be wholly and fully dependent upon the all-surpassing power of God.
Therefore, Paul sees our pain and heartache – the difficulties in life – as a way to identify with the pain and heartache Jesus faced when he died on the cross for you and me. It is a suffering as close as skin that allows us in a small way to experience, through the glass darkly, what Jesus experienced when he took in all the brutality, ridicule, and abandonment that was meant for you and me. This is how we carry the death of Jesus around in our bodies, allowing the life of Jesus to be revealed. (2 Corinthians 4:7-10 NIV)
No matter how well intentioned we are – no matter how Brett-Favre-Iron-Man-like we are – we incapable of carrying this death of Jesus within us without being desperately dependent upon God. But the Good News is that our pain, our heartache, our confusion, our doubts, our mountain-sized difficulties can push us – if we allow it – into the very center of God’s all surpassing power.
And this supernatural strength allows us to say, “We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” (2 Corinthians 4:7-10 NIV)
Llaly wrote @ October 14th, 2007 at 5:27 am
i like the blog really!..more power 2 those people who write..this blog..good luck!hehe
RiCHaRd wrote @ October 14th, 2007 at 10:57 am
wla lng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jean wrote @ October 14th, 2007 at 11:54 am
marga is one hell of a terrific writer. such command of words. beautifully written, as her other posts. complex, full of heart and right on the spot. can’t get any better than this. 
keep writing marga! i am a fan!
Josefa wrote @ October 14th, 2007 at 2:47 pm
Marga,
You know bore which is characterized by predictability
and routene,coz God love’s you..
Be careful for nothing but in
everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving,
let your rezuests be made known unto God. ( Phil. 4:6 )
Welvin wrote @ October 14th, 2007 at 9:16 pm
i`m not living in this world,without sex.hahahahaha!i miss all the people that give me a happinest moment.mwuuuuuah.
MAYOLA wrote @ October 14th, 2007 at 9:55 pm
Wla lng… Im just interested about the content
prince wrote @ October 15th, 2007 at 1:14 am
i do really appreciate how things in your imagination are given the right terms and meaning…thank you so much
joel wrote @ October 15th, 2007 at 5:12 am
ganda la masabi
Bagsholic wrote @ October 16th, 2007 at 10:03 am
The fact with human being is we never felt satisfied with what we have. I guess you’re bored because you’ve reached the goal u set back then. I myself have been complaining this whole boredom thing from time to time. Then each time I’m bored, I told myself I need a new challenge. By the time the challenge got there, I’m stressed out. U see ..
derty wrote @ October 16th, 2007 at 6:45 pm
OK
more power to those who wrote this blog…. jejeje it’s very nice…
saskia wrote @ October 16th, 2007 at 9:50 pm
………. i don’t know nice to
jackylou wrote @ October 17th, 2007 at 9:38 am
FRIENDS ARE MY SOURCE OF JOY…BEING HAPPY IS A SYMBOL OF AN ESSENCE OF BEING THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAD INTOYOUR LIFE.
Jillian wrote @ October 17th, 2007 at 9:38 pm
I just love your display photo, it feels all sunny and nice…and it has that nostalgic feel to it as well =)
jenoria wrote @ October 17th, 2007 at 11:21 pm
ok d2 sa friendster noh,,malamig,,ggrrrrrrrrrrr,,,hehehhe
RANDLE wrote @ October 18th, 2007 at 8:23 pm
ayos! ganda nito! tama ang tagumpay ay iba-iba ang kasabihan sa bawat nilalang. 
galing mo pare!
Shaira wrote @ October 19th, 2007 at 9:04 pm
time is gold
ako ni pagkabata nako.nagduwa duwa og dakop-akop
Vidal III wrote @ October 20th, 2007 at 12:38 am
Nice
lyn wrote @ October 20th, 2007 at 10:09 am
110% agreed.
rogelio wrote @ October 20th, 2007 at 10:53 pm
godbless to you i was in manila and i want you to be my frnds!!!
iam rogelio alvrez you so prtty
and maputi thats all my comment to you and god bless….
brother wrote @ October 21st, 2007 at 2:19 am
fun with u live
hei marga!or can I call you ate..since you’re more mature than me.. hehe.i love your writing skills… I am also a writer and I admire your posts…
Ailyn wrote @ October 21st, 2007 at 5:15 am
simple girl, maganda,kind,cute,@ understanding 2
ibarra wrote @ October 22nd, 2007 at 4:55 am
ganda ng view….. nice one girl
Lenilyn wrote @ October 22nd, 2007 at 10:37 pm
perpect..nice view?
aileen wrote @ October 23rd, 2007 at 6:10 am
love and cares those things surrounds uS!!!!!
it is the gift that GOD given to us….
be a nature lover!!!!
aileen wrote @ October 23rd, 2007 at 6:11 am
hi
aileen wrote @ October 23rd, 2007 at 6:12 am
hello
Ginting
marybeth wrote @ October 24th, 2007 at 10:38 pm
see the meaning of gods creatures
set wrote @ October 25th, 2007 at 2:09 am
nyc blogz, i jzt boiled 2 realized zumthng!!!
Michelle wrote @ October 25th, 2007 at 2:45 am
galing grabe…
Nelson wrote @ October 25th, 2007 at 4:05 pm
ei… first time to read your blogs… nice site!! congrats!! i actually just started blogging myself… your blog will be an inspiration… http://nelsonbautista.blogs.friendster.com
vAny wrote @ October 26th, 2007 at 2:02 am
oh nyz
fernando wrote @ October 26th, 2007 at 6:12 pm
elow mga fwends muzz tana
fernando wrote @ October 26th, 2007 at 6:13 pm
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Zally wrote @ October 26th, 2007 at 9:35 pm
Have you tried volunteering?
jenny wrote @ October 27th, 2007 at 4:23 am
good
eDeN wrote @ October 28th, 2007 at 5:05 am
someday ,,,,
i mst learn
hw my life exist en d ftre
realise ..
the tme spent tht knwing meeee,,,,,,
to grow up lyk a mtured human being
,,,,,,its sad ….
cause evry moment i lve ths wnderful world that people around me its a bleeesing tht i have ,,,,
every days im living ths world im so thnkful
love u forever my lyf is complete ,,,,,,
THANK’z 2 ALLL lovable friendlyyyy memoriesss
leonardo wrote @ October 28th, 2007 at 11:02 pm
ad nyo
Emyat wrote @ October 30th, 2007 at 11:37 pm
elow mga frndzzzzzzzz miz u all na
lyrem wrote @ October 31st, 2007 at 7:00 pm
great…
aloha!
I’m inspired by your blo
gs…I really like it…c:
cAtHy wrote @ November 7th, 2007 at 1:17 am
that’s my prob too. i don’t even know what should i do for this boredom. but still,i am trying to be at my best for each day.
i hope this will fade then.
Rene wrote @ February 18th, 2008 at 4:21 am
hi marga. i really like your blogs. i just so wish that i’m sane enough to write such a beautiful piece of literature. it’s a dark contrast to my blog. I write like a retard, which i probably am. i don’t know… well, consider me a fan of yours. more power!
myra wrote @ March 5th, 2008 at 6:01 pm
to be honest i like your blogs
how i wish i could write thesame too. to express my feelings. Hope in the future you achieve what your looking for. GOD BLESS!!
Mina wrote @ May 27th, 2008 at 7:17 am
Hi,What a nice Blogs…nkk touch nang Feelings…pwede ko kopiyahin…ha!!ha! ha!!god bless
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